1. Be Impeccable With Your Word
Speak with integrity. Say only what you mean. Avoid using the word to speak against yourself or to gossip about others. Use the power of your word in the direction of truth and love.

2. Don't Take Anything Personally
Nothing others do is because of you. What others say and do is a projection of their own reality, their own dream. When you are immune to the opinions and actions of others, you won't be the victim of needless suffering.

3. Don't Make Assumptions
Find the courage to ask questions and to express what you really want. Communicate with others as clearly as you can to avoid misunderstandings, sadness and drama. With just this one agreement, you can completely transform your life.

4. Always Do Your Best
Your best is going to change from moment to moment; it will be different when you are healthy as opposed to sick. Under any circumstance, simply do your best, and you will avoid self-judgment, self-abuse and regret.
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These four agreements have had a major impact on my emotional and spiritual growth. I recently purchased the companion book and it is loaded with exercises to help you learn to master each agreement. Since this is my diary, I've decided to share my adventures by posting them here on my blog. I am mentioning this because this is my space (no pun intended) and even though it is out there in the open I am going to vent as if no one were reading. With that said...anything read from this post on should be read at your own discretion! That is my one and only disclaimer. Hahaha...

Now, not taking things personally...
Right now, I am trying not to take a lot of things personally. I opened up to someone who hurt me recently and I am still licking the wound from that. I trust without caution. I really think everyone (well, almost everyone) is genuinely a good person and their concern for others runs as deep to their core as mine. "What others say and do is a projection of their own reality, their own dream;" therefore it is impossible for me to have any expectations associated with another individual's behavior. I forgot that truth for a brief period in my life and now that it has been reaffirmed in my heart the "needless suffering" has mostly disappeared. I need to remind myself that I am experiencing my reality as the INFP that I totally am. It still sort of bothers me that Mother Theresa was an INFP too. I mean, I care about people, but totally in a selfish way. Hahaha...

Other than the maniacal drivers...
Everything is just the way I left it almost nine years ago. Neat, in tack, and overflowing with love. I am so glad to be with my family and friends during this holiday. I've missed them more than I cared to admit in the past. I look forward to the countless hours of convo catching up on matters of the heart.

Euphoric? Almost...
Priceless? Totally!

I keep hearing this song play in my head. I can't wait to hold my babycakes in my arms! *sigh*

It felt SO damn good to finally sleep in my own bed last night. I got to cuddle with my little furry monster all night. He has been curled up beside me since I sat on the bed. After speaking with my mom and Frankie last night it has been decided that my move back to the Bronx will not wait for the new year. I spent the day catching up with friends online, via text, and via telephone. I almost forgot how much love there is for me. Now I feel special again! *hugs self*

Two snow storms.
A car tow.
And the end of a friendship...




Lesson:
You never know someone until you live with them!

This is my favorite song of all time...EVER! :)
The video is kinda creepy and in no way relates to the lyrics, but I am posting both!



Something has to change.
Un-deniable dilemma.
Boredoms not a burden
Anyone should bear.

Constant over stimulation numbs me
But I wouldnt want you
Any other way.

Just, not enough.
I need more.
Nothing seems to satisfy.
I said, I dont want it.
I just need it.
To breathe, to feel, to know Im alive.

Finger deep within the borderline.
Show me that you love me and that we belong together.
Relax, turn around and take my hand.

I can help you change
Tired moments into pleasure.
Say the word and well be
Well upon our way.

Blend and balance
Pain and comfort
Deep within you
Till you will not want me any other way.

But, its not enough.
I need more.
Nothing seems to satisfy.
I said, I dont want it.
I just need it.
To breathe, to feel, to know Im alive.

Knuckle deep inside the borderline.
This may hurt a little but its something youll get used to.
Relax. slip away.

Something kinda sad about
The way that things have come to be.
Desensitized to everything.
What became of subtlety?

How can it mean anything to me
If I really dont feel anything at all?

Ill keep digging till,
I feel something.

Elbow deep inside the borderline.
Show me that you love me and that we belong together.
Shoulder deep within the borderline.
Relax. turn around and take my hand.

This is pretty nifty...
I need to broaden my vocabulary! Hahaha...

...I shouldn't have left you; Without a dope beat to step to! *doing the running man* What you know about that?! Hahaha... And yes, you know I HAD to find the video and post it here too.



All jokes aside, I'm glad to be back. I had to slide into hibernation for some soul searching and mental regeneration. I return well rested and ready to take on the world despite the ice storm that passed through the area. It was a minor inconvenience to put it lightly! A lot of my friends went for days without power. I brought pizza over to one of my closest friends who lives in Sand Lake, NY aka the butt fuck of NOWHERE! Poor thing, he hadn't had hot food to eat for days until I showed up! It was great to see local shelters popping up everywhere and people offering their neighbors a place to stay. I think I know exactly what gift he will be receiving from me for christmas...

I cannot believe I missed this! This is one of my favorite songs ever.

...just like this.

I was watching an episode of Def Comedy Jam last night. Tony Roberts was one of the comedians. He is effing hilarious. I found it on YouTube and I HAD to share. The first minute and a half he starts singing a song titled, "You need your ass beat." The lyrics are true to the chorus. It made me start thinking about some "You need your ass beat" moments. The first thing that came to mind is the scenario of the guy (and it is almost always a male) that drives a Hummer or some other outrageously priced gas-guzzling vehicle, but still lives with his parents because he makes just enough to afford his car payment, gas, and unlimited texting plan for his blackberry. The next comes from my experience as a case manager for homeless families. I would often have to visit the lovely Department of Social Services with a client and see one or two individuals there with an outfit on that I knew cost more than my month's salary. Topped off with their newest gadget either clipped to their waist or in their hand. I always had to stop myself from going up to them and saying..."You need your ass beat." Hahaha...

Here's the video of Tony Roberts.


And for those of you that have never heard the song "Laffy Taffy" that he references...I got that for you too! Hahaha...



Shake that Laffy Taffy! Hahaha...

I know...
Too good to be true, eh?
Well, for those of you who know me you know that I wouldn't lie. I still cannot believe these people paid me $25 to tell them my smoking preferences. I've been a member at this site for a few months and I'm the "casual survey taker." Meaning that I usually delete the emails they send me except about once a month on a Sunday when I'm bored and all of my friends have plans I take 5-10 surveys. I made $17 so far that way. I'm excited that they have paypal now and I won't have to wait around for a check. I had to do some digging for a referral link but I found one! If you're interested in checking it out at least give me some credit by using my referral link...hahaha...

Greenfield Online

I got flowers today! When I arrived home they were waiting for me in front of my door. The note (which contents shall remain private) attached to them made my heart melt and my face beam! Thank you so very much my dear! I just realized that I was so excited I haven't even checked the mail! Hahaha...

No complaints. Grateful to be alive, have food, and a place to sleep.

Today's Lesson:
Practice Love.